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To the Letter To the Letter Volume Z I'm Not Afraid of The Dark

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*FOR LEE DOWNNG

WHERE THERE’S SMOKE
THERE’S HEAT /WHERE THERE’S LIGHT
SOMETIMES
THERE ‘S A BLAZE/CAN YOU SMELL IT?/THE STINK OF BURNING
PLASTIC/CAN YOU FEEL IT GET JUST A LITTLE BIT HOTTER IN HERE?/IT’S REALLY
NOT YOUR IMAGINATION/ AND THERE ARE DEMONS IN THE LIGHT /DEMONS
WHO CAN SING AND DANCE/DEMONS WHICH CAN AMUSE AND ENTERTAIN
BUT
NEVERTHELESS THEY ARE DEMONS
AND YOU HAVE INVITED THEM HOME

WHERE IT’S COLD.
THEY’LL HEAT THINGS UP
FOR YOU
NICE AND TOASTY

HOME INSIDE
LOUSY WITH SWEET LITTLE MONSTERS
DREAMING UP LIES
ABOUT THE LIGHT

TONIGHT,

WHERE IT’S REALLY HOT AND DARK NOW ……..
BUT DANCING BEAUTIFULLY
THE DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
ARE WORKING UP A
BRILLIANT FRENZY
AND THOSE CHAINS BINDING THEM
SNAP
AS MORE DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
NOW COME HOME TO LIVE WITH YOU

AND WE ARE GIVING BIRTH Now
TO LIGHT

AND WE ARE GIVING BIRTH Now
TO NIGHT

WHERE HIDING DEMONS IN DARKNESS
LAUGHING MERRILY
CLOTHE THEMSELVES QUICKLY
IN CHEAP RADIANCE
WHICH You ADORINGLY BRING
HOME TO LIVE WITH You

WHERE IT’S REALLY
HOT AND NASTY
NOW
(and Flames are Beginning to Crawl Down My Arms/
And Flames are Beginning to Spread Down My Legs…)

AND
DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
WITH DERANGED AND SMILING FACES
HAVE
COME HOME
WITH ME
DARLING,

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT, GODAMNIT!

AND FIERY FINGERS
OF DESIRE
ARE MANIPULATING MY
MIND.

AND I AM FEVER-STRUCK
IN HIDEOUS RADIANCE
WITH A
RAVING MAD AND SENSELESS
DESIRE
WHICH LOOKS
A LOT LIKE LOVE
BUT FEELS
A LOT MORE LIKE

HATE

AND NOT CARING WHICH

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT

FILL YOUR HOME WITH FESTIVE
COLOUR AND MOTION AND SOUND WHICH ALL
SPARKLES
DAZZLINGLY BRIGHT AND SHINY WITH STREAKS OF SWEAT ROLLING MISERABLY
DOWN
WHICH JUST SEEMS TO BE GETTING HOTTER

AND HOTTER AND HOTTER

AND HOTTER/ AND RISING WHITE SMOKE
IS BEGINNING TO DULL
MY MIND
ASI
BREATHE IN A SWEET
FIERY
BLACK DEATH

I WILL DRESS UP LIKE A DOLL FOR YOU…

WHICH I WOULD ONLY TRY TO DESCRIBE

AS ALL MY SHITTY SECRET SACRIFfCES TO
HIDDEN SHRINES OF DEATH
I HAVE MADE
AND WILL NOT RELEASE TO

THE LIGHT
MY DARLINGS, DEMONS OF THE LIGHT

GODDAMN THEM.

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
BLAZING INSANELY BRILLIANT,

AND B L I N D I N G
DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
LOVE A FIERY JUSTICE …..
JUSTICE WHICH PUNISHES SEVERELY
DOWN TO THE MOST MINOR AND PETTY OFFENSE
LONG
AND CRUEL
AND RIDICULOUSLY HARD
STEEPED IN BLOOD AND BLAZING JUSTICE
LIKE BLOOD RED GUILT
AND THE LIKES
COULD
BE EXCEPTIONALLY NASTY BLOOD RED DELIGHTS
TO DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
ARE COMING HOME TO LIVE WITH YOU …. DEMONS OF THE LIGHT, GODAMN YOU!

AND IT’S OBVIOUSLY
TOO LATE
YOU
COULDN’T TELL THEM
TO GO BACK
TO WHERE THEY CAME
FROM
DON’T EVEN TRY,
YOU CANNOT TELL THEM
TO GO BACK WHERE THEY
CAME FROM
IF THEY CAME
FROM

NOWHERE

DEMONS
OF THE LIGHT
ARE HIDING
IN THE DARKNESS
OF OUR DENYING MINDS

WHERE WE ALLOW THEM

ROOM IN OUR LIVES

AND YOU
CANNOT TELL THEM
TO GO BACK WHERE
THEY CAME FROM …..

IT’S TOO LATE.

THEY ARE COMING EN MASSE
WITH A RADIANT BANNER DECLARING YOUR DEATH!

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
ARE SHINING
DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
ARE HUNGRY
AND SEEKING TO INFEST AND FEAST
DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
ARE CLIMBING DOWN FROM THE SKY
AND NOW
PAUSING,
AND STOPPING
TO STARE AT
YOU
READING THIS
THEY LAUGH
MESMERIZED
SHRIEKING HIGH SHRILL
JUSTIFIABLE FURY
POSING NASTY AND NUDE
FRISKING AND FROLICING WITHIN
CLEAR AND HATEFULLY DRAWN
WHITE LINEs——”————THEY SEEK DARK DEMON COUNCIL THERE

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
ARE
NOW OFFERING YOU
FOR A LIMITED TIME ONLY

INSTEAD OF ALL THAT DREADFUL SUFFERING AND SWEATING AND HATING

ALL
THE TYPICAL GARDEN VARIETY MISERIES
YOU CAN EXPECT
OF BAD FANTASY

(OR YOUR IMMORTAL SOUL AUTOMATICALLY REFUNDED)

FACTUALLY BASED
ON
OVERLONG AND TERRIBLY WRITTEN
SELF-INDULGENT SCRIPTS OF TERROR AND ATTACK
SHOT THROUGH
AND PEPPERED
WITH
FOUL POTTY LANGUAGE
NOT FIT FOR THE KlDDIES

(0 MY!)
WHAT THE HELL… BRING THEM ALONG TOO, FOR THE RIDE ..

WHY NOT?
DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
WILL SACRIFICE YOUR CHILDREN
ANYWAY
TO MORAL MAJORITY MORALITY; LOVINGLY LIT WHITE HOT
WITH INTOLERANCE, BIGOTRY AND HATE

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
ARE SEEKING TO PUNISH YOU /SENSELESSLY
FOR YOUR
TRUST

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
DEMAND YOUR TERROR

SO THEY CAN GLUT AND FEAST AND GORGE ON IT RAVENOUSLY
ALL THE TIME JUST GETTING FATTER.AND FATTER
AND FATTER AND FATTER

LIKE OVER-BLOATED FISHYWHITE
BOTTOM FEEDING WORMS

LOW DOWN NASTY DIRTY
CREATURES
SEEKING INNOCENCE AND PURITY TO DEVOUR
FOR THEMSELVES AND
SEEKING TO NEGOTIATE
EVEN MORE

BADLY SCRIPTED FANTASIES
WITH WHICH TO CONTRACT OUT
AN ENTIRE SEASON, PERHAPS ….. WHO KNOWS.
WHAT WITH THE LIVELY-HOOD OF ALL THOSE SPECIFICALLY PERSECUTED
SICK WEAK TERRIFIED SOULS
ALL BANDING
DESPERATELY TOGETHER
AGAINST THEIR OBVIOUSLY MORE EVIL
DARKER FOES

WHO THOUGH UNSEEN
AND UNKNOWN

PLAGUE THEIR DREAMS WITH THE CORRUPTED SEEDS OF HOPE

AND TORMENT THEIR TWISTED FANTASIES

WITH THAT TERRIBLE ITCHY BURNING SENSATION

ACHING YEARNINGLY WITH
UNSPOKEN DESIRES

WHICH NO MATTER HOW HARD WE
TRY
WE SIMPLY CANNOT DENY

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT

ARE HIDING
FROM OUR DELUDED MINDS

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT

ARE BLAZING
SPILLING
AND
RUNNING OUT
MY MOUTH
IN HORRID GLOWING SWARMS
SWIMMING UP INTO THE AIR
AND SKY
AND THEY ARE ALSO LEAKING
STREAMING
BLINDING DOWN MY TEAR-STAINED FACE
FROM
MY HELLFIRE RED EYES
WHICH UPON

SEEING THE LIGHT

BEING STUNNED DAZZLED AND THEN
BLINDED TOTALLY
BY IT

ARE QUICKLY BURNED OUT OF MY SKULL
FROM THE BLAZING SHOCK
OF VISION

DARK GRUESOME HOLES

I CAN STILL SEE
THROUGH

SOMEHOW,

I BECOME COMPLETELY CONSUMED
BY HELLISHLY INEPT
SACRIFICES

SOMEONE MUST PAY IN BLOOD
AND GUILT
AND DEATH FOR
GODAMNIT/
DEMONS
OF THE LIGHT
NEVERTHELESS

HAVING TAKEN RESIDENCE
IN YOUR HOME

WILL REVEAL
TO THE WORLD

ALL YOUR WORST
AND MOST SHAMEFUL SECRET
SINS
YOU HAVE BEEN SAVING/SINS
YOU HAVE BEEN LOVING/
SINS/

AND YOU MUST BURN
THEM OUT…..

YOU MUST WHITE THEM
RIGHT OUT

OF YOUR MIND

THIS INSTANT / YOU MUST HATE
AND PREACH

HATE

YES
AND YOU MUST BURN
AND BLAZE

WITH HATE,

HIDING IT

YOU MUST ALWAYS PRESENT
“CLEAN. HONEST. “

YOU SHALL FEEL
NEITHER
AS YOU

TWIST AND WRITHE IN AGONY BEHIND THE SCENES WITH GUILT/

MUCH TO THE AMUSEMENT
AND DELIGHT
OF DEMONS
OF THE LIGHT

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT

NOW HAVING TAKEN
RESIDENCE
IN YOUR HEART

MUST NOW STOP AND LAUGH CRUELLY AT YOUR FOOLISH PRIDE
MUST NOW LAUGH MOCKINGLY AT YOUR AGING JOY
MUST NOW LAUGH SPITEFULLY AT YOUR CRUMBLING DREAMS
MUST NOW LAUGH AT YOUR DECAYING MIND

AS DERANGED AND SMILING

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
BID YOU SWEET GOODNIGHT
IN FLAMING EFFIGIES
DESIGNED TO PLEASE
AND
ATTRACT
ONLY THE SICKEST
FILTHIEST
NASTIEST

MINDS.

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
( GODDAMN THEM. )

SAY
DYING WITH THE DAWN RAYS

THAT YOU SHOULD FEEL FREE TO
REVEAL YOURSELF
AND SECRET SELVES

TO THEM./THEY INVITE You
GRAVELY TO COME AND PLAY
IN THEIR INFERNAL SANDBOX
OF GUILTY AS-SHIT-COATED DELIGHT

CHANTING IN INSANELY HAPPY
BABY-BABBLE; “WE WILL SMOKE OUT OUR FEARS,
TOGETHER ..
WE WILL SMOKE OUT OUR FEARS
TOGETHER
WE WILL SMOKE OUT OUR FEARS
TOGETHER
WE WILL SMOKE OUT
ALL OUR SECRET HATES
AND HURTS.

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT

ARE
CLEANSING …….

DEMONS OF THE·LIGHT
ARE SHINING
IN THE MAD POET’S SKULL
AND HE CANNOT
SHUT THEM OFF
JUST NOW/CANNOT SHUT THEM OFF ….

SO HE GOES DOWN.
INTO THE CELLAR
FOREVER

ALLOWING THOSE
TREACHEROUS AND THIEVING
DEMONS OF THE LIGHT

TO COME FEAST THEIR
FIERY APPETITES
ON THE WHOLE HOUSE
ABOVE HIM

THEIR HUNGRY FLAMES LICKING AND
STRIPPING EVERYTHING AWAY

CLEAN, WHITE
AND NEW IN THEIR
THOROUGHLY DESTRUCTIVE SWEEP
THROUGH YEARS OF ACQUIRED MEMORABILIA

ALL SUCKED UP AND SWALLOWED
DOWN INTO A RAGING BRIGHT
OBLIVION
AND
GONE UP IN SMOKE
LIKE AN ACT OF GOD

AND PHOTOGRAPHIC GHOSTS OF DEAD ICY LIGHTS
COME SWEEPING INVISIBLE AND HOWLING
MOURNFULLY OVERHEAD
AS SOME FAMILY ALBUM PICTURES CRUMPLE UP IN THE HUNGRY LIPS
OF THE DYING BURNING LIGHT

SEEMING TO STRIP AWAY SHADE BY SHADE
ALL THE PEOPLE
IN THE PICTURES WITH LITTLE REGARD FOR THEIR
PATHETIC 2-DIMENSIONAL LIVES

BLAZING THEM ALLAWAY COMPLETELY
DISPASSIONATE
IN ITS TERRIBLE BUSINESS

AND STRIPPING THESE PAPER WHITE SOULS
DOWN TO THEIR
BARE NAKED ESSENCE

CAUGHT IN THE HELLISH LIGHT OF PURGATORY
LIKE FISH IN THE NETS OF OLD LUCIFER HIMSELF

DEMONS OF THE LIGHT
BEAR EAGERLY DOWN
ON THE ESCAPING MORSELS OF
TASTY INNOCENCE
SNATCHING AND
CLUTCHING AT THEM IN TALONS
AND IN NASTY GUT SLASHING CLAWS

BUT SMILING VERY PLEASED
WITH YOU
BEING THE FIRST CATCH OF THE DAY

THOUGH THEY COULD VERY WELL
DEVOUR YOU ALIVE
WRITHING AND SCREAMING
IN UNSPEAKABLE AGONY

YET SCRUTINIZING
YOU THOROUGHLY

THEY DECLINE
AND WINKING
THEMSELVES
OUT

BEHIND YOUR

DEVASTATED EYES
DEMONS OF THE LIGHT

FORGIVE, CLEANSE AND HEAL YOU

AND THEN DISAPPEAR
FOREVER
INTO THEIR NOTHINGNESS

IN THE ARRIVING LIGHT

I’m Not Afraid of the Dark #74
13, December 1998

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