*for the Artist formerly known as Melanie Myle
I AM
AN EMPTIED EMPTY
NOW,……/SEARCHING AND SEEKING TO BE
SATISFIED/I AM BACK
AT YOU/BANDAGED-UP
ALL IN BLACK
NOW../WAITING……/WAITING……./WAITING TO BE SATISFIED/WAITING……./
WAITING TO BE FREED
AND UNTIED/VICIOUS
WITH HUNGER
AND CRUEL WITHOUT MERCY/I WILL
EAT YOU UP
ALIVE!/MY FRIGHTENED, TENDER, SUCCULENT MORSEL
I LOVE YOU BEST
KEPT A SLAVE IN THE WORKSHOPS
ABOUT THE UNSTABLE SCALES OF MY DESIRE/I CANNOT GET ENOUGH
OF WHAT THERE IS TOO MUCH OF/I CANNOT NOW
CONSUME YOU FAST ENOUGH/WITHOUT PAIN IN THE PAST ENOUGH
I HUNGER
FOR YOU NOW/FEEDING OFF NOTHING
LIKE A NAUSEOUS VAMPIRE/AND WITHIN US
THE BELLY OF THE BEAST NOTES NO DISCOMFORT, RESIDING IN
ROTTEN, BLOATING GAS/IT FARTS OUT ITS WASTES. M E R R IL Y /REEKING
TO HIGH HEAVEN/YET SICKLY EAGER TO WHIFF IT ALL UP AGAIN/TO
STEAL IT ALL BACK AGAIN/DEPOSITING THEM OBEDIENTLY INTO A BARF
DROPPED DEAD
INTO THE INSATIABLE FEASTS OF FEAR/FOR THIS, MY LOVE,
IS THE BUFFET OF SICKNESS/THIS SMORGASBORD OF THE REVOLTING AND
VILE/WILL ALWAYS LEAVE A BEAST HUNGRY/AND HUNGERING
FOR MORE/HERE, WHERE FEAR CANNOT BE SATISFIED BY YOU/………NOR
CAN I/
21, June 1997
Finnegan Poetry From The Feast of Fear # 5
I’M NOT AFRAID OF THE DARK #45