If I were not a MadmanI would be consideredfrom the Point of View of “normal”in These Earthly Badlands(where am i/what am i/who am i/)“normal” I am not normal… I am happy with Myself I was taught to FearLiving SinfullyI was not paying attentionI learned what made me happy Earlyand Loved it regardlessI remember being scolded […]

For Cal Selfridge, Whom I humbly Bless to rise I Haveright herein my handthe Silver Star of Creation;that primal burst of Lifewhich Chimesso Vibrant in My Soul.And I give it to You to Play with,to Shape a new Destiny,to Trail-blaze to Fiery Heights of PerceptionOur Wisdomin Love. Togetherwe carve a UniverseOut of the Raw Clay […]

For Sander Hicks and Darren Ross White cheeks flexingas if I hadn’t seen themwith My Own EyesI remembered Nothingbut the Heat of the Bloodas it raced to my Heart(-(-the Sweet of it/the Meat of it-)-)Bloodlettingis a Socially Acceptable formof Criticism,Damnationbeing the Hidden Agenda/I am tired of the CuttingsI give Myselfagainst the Razor’s Edge of Wit/Comedyis […]

(a poem for the Heat-Seeker) To seek in Heat the leaking lightBehind the Eyes which seek a fightTo search Behind the Mindto find in darkness that which ofthe Eye seeks not isThereYou find it.There it is. It is now and it is here.There is a jolt, a brief transmissiona flashing Vision bringing brief heatwith it, […]

IT BEGINS WITH TEN.I AM TOLDAT THE CORE, THAT I MUST FOCUS CHAOTIC DENSITYOF THOUGHT.YES. THAT IS SO. FOR I AM TOLD THAT I WILL SEE THE LIGHT.AND I MUST FRAME THIS FOCUS PLAYFULLY.AND THAT BELOW I DO NOT SEE THE COMMUNITY AT LARGE.AND I AM TOLDI WILL BE THE SATISFACTIONI SEEKAND I AM TOLDTHAT […]

*FOR DEBBI KEMPTON-SMITH BARBARA BRADY AND JUNE BRIDGERS PART 1,“GOOD LITTLE CATHOLIC GIRLS DON’T DIE!” OUR FATHER IN HEAVENHALLOWED BE THY NAMEFOR HEAVEN KNOWSWE’VE MADEA RIGHTEOUS STINKOF THINGS DOWN HEREANDI’VE BEEN SUCH A BAD GIRL….I’VE BEEN SUCH A BAD GIRL! HAVE I MISSED SOMETHING?HAS LIFE CHEATED ME FROM LIVING?I DON’T THINK SO.HOW COULD I COMPLAIN?DON’T […]

For Oprah Winfrey and Steven Speilberg Alive in a LanguageI never Thought PossibleI decidedI would Kisswithout Reservationthe Lips of My first True Love,The Sky;for it was The Skythat first drew My Attention and My Appreciation,Yes.The Sky.The Sky is Not some Fast, Mindless, Temporal Engagement,the Sky is Endless,its Joys Not too quickly passedand Goneto be genuinely […]

For all you wannabes I ride the Subways of New York Citybecause it’s cheaper than Cabs andI love the Abundant Diversity of the SubwayoftenFailing to see how I add to it. I mean I’mJust This weirdlooking fellow in Black,whom Most Caucasians (and Blacks)constantly mistakefor trying to pass for white (How Insulting!)and totally cannot conceiveof my […]

For Dameon Automatic Writing is Heavenis in Bed/is Automatic Fire to the Lips of Leaking Intelligence/What You are Thinkingis Probably What am I thinking of/sitting Next to This Abserce of Darkness/So Said. So Sad/ Makes it So/Makes Do. Makes Miracles whiparound in My SkyFilled Skull/Splits Open Bubbles of Skin/(Bubbles of Popping Hideous Sins)Spitting Up a […]

These Old Bonesslow me down/These Old Yellow Bones/Don’t Give them to The Dog/Don’t GiveThese Old Yellow Bonesto The Dog eat Dog WorldOut There/Because The Brown Marrow of WisdomWill Be Swallowed/ Be SHATTTERED they Will/Because The Brown Marrow of Wisdomwill Be Sucked/Sucked Clean from Them/Sucked Clean From These Old Bones/These Old Yellow BonesSlow Me Down/ I […]

For Trent Reznor In My Worst Nightmares/I am slowly awakening in Wreckageto a Dark Silent World/Where Everyone is deadWhere Everyone is deadWhere Everyone is dead but Me/ I am the Sole Survivor of This Oblivion/of This Unspeakable DestructionI am the Last One Left Alive/ I feel so Sad and Alone here/so Sad and Alone Here/So […]

*for Barbara Brady In the Beginning Wholeness was The Host to This Radiant Child of Passion Then Came The Shadows…………/ (and Thus Began My Descent into Seductive Suffering in a Pleasurable Hell) And Sense Shattering Trauma  after Sense Shattering Trauma I discovered a Jagged Edged Hatred Gift Wrapped Just For Me/ and Finding Such  Forever Unpalatable….. […]

*for the Artist formerly known as Melanie Myle I AMAN EMPTIED EMPTYNOW,……/SEARCHING AND SEEKING TO BESATISFIED/I AM BACKAT YOU/BANDAGED-UPALL IN BLACKNOW../WAITING……/WAITING……./WAITING TO BE SATISFIED/WAITING……./WAITING TO BE FREEDAND UNTIED/VICIOUSWITH HUNGERAND CRUEL WITHOUT MERCY/I WILLEAT YOU UPALIVE!/MY FRIGHTENED, TENDER, SUCCULENT MORSELI LOVE YOU BESTKEPT A SLAVE IN THE WORKSHOPSABOUT THE UNSTABLE SCALES OF MY DESIRE/I CANNOT GET […]

*for Adonis Fazekas with Love BEING REAL SICK OF DEADAND GONEI AWOKEIN A FRENZYOF FEEDING/BERSERKWITH A FURY/WITHBroken Robot Parts RainingDOWN ALL AROUND MEIN AGONY AND RAGE/I OPENED UPTHE LAST HOLE OF MY LIFETO YOU/AND THEREFESTERING IN DENIAL AND HATREDWAS I/T w i s t e dAND SCREAMING ANDBROKEN-BONEDBUT ALIVE/AND MISERABLE/WITHJUST THE WORST OF ME LEFTFROM […]

*FOR JOHNNY PAVLOU WITH LOVESHOCKBLASTED AND HIDEOUSWITH THE SHRIEKING SNAKESOF SICKTWISTED BROTHERS WHO HIDETHEIR DARK DEEDS WITH A SMILE/TWISTED AND SHOCKBLASTED BROTHERS IN DESPERATION/ARE BREATHLESSAND RUNNING OUT OFTIME…/AND THEY’RE GASPING AND LOVING THE HEAT OFTHE HOT HARD FRICTION THEY FEELMAKING THEMSELVES FRANTICWITH LOVEFOR EACH OTHER/THEY HATE TO ADMIT/A SECRETTHEY WILL KILL YOU FOR/TO HIDE……../BURY YOUIN […]

…FOR THE MAN OF MY DREAMS CLOSE IN TIMEWITH A BRIGHT SHAVE INTO DARKNESS/ IAM A FACE WHICH HEREIS NOT BEAUTIFUL WITH SMILES AND LOVE/ (Nicks and Scars) / IAM A FACE OF NOTHINGIN TIMEWITH A CLOSE SHAVE/ (NICKS AND SCARS) / TOGRIND DOWN TO NOTHINGALL THAT I AM IN A FACE OF TEARS / […]

*for Jonathan Walsh, You Cannot Hide from Me Forever…… I WANTED TO HIDE/I WAS NOT DEAD?/THERE WEREBAD THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD/WHICH TOLD ME TOSLAY AND MURDERAND KILL/AND DELIGHT IN THE SLAUGHTER WITH THE BLOODOF INNOCENTS/GLUTTED AND GORGED UPON, MADE FAT,AND RIPELIKE A ROACHIN THE DARK/RUNNINGFROM THE LIGHT……..TO BEAND HIDE ALONE/TO BE ALONE WITH GUILT; AND […]

For MICHAEL STONE, ADONIS FAZEKAS, JONATHAN WALSH and PAT, wherever he is There were No Words to DescribeTHE LlGHTwhen It come For Him.THI LIGHT was only Wholebecause of His Appreciation for ItAnd in this He was Healed. There were No Pictures to describeThis LIGHTto His mind for THE LIGHT was Limitless·and if he were a […]

For Those Wicked Walsh Parents; ONCEWHEN I BREATHED LIQUIDIWAS PURE AND CLEANFOREVER……NOWTHAT I BREATHETHE AIR THAT I BREATHETHE AIR THAT I BREATHE IS DIRTIEDBY DOUBT;DIRTIED IN TURNBY ANGER AND FEAR…… ONCEWHEN I BREATHED LIQUIDIWAS ONE,WILDAND FREE….. ONCEWHEN I BREATHED LIQUID LOVE/I WASNOT ALONE/NEVER APART FROM ME AND MINE,/IWAS MOST AT HOME … /…. NOW THAT […]

I DO NOT SLEEP NAKED ON SATIN SHEETSI DO NOT SLEEP AT ALL ……..I DO NOT CLUTCH HATRED WITH BATED BREATHI DO NOT KEEP THE SCOREI WILL NOT WEAR COLOURS WHICH YOU ASSIGNI AM NOT WHAT YOU PERCIEVEI AM FREE LIKE THE SMOKE OF THE AUTUMN LIGHTSAND THE PASSION MY HEART BREATHES •••I DO NOT […]

WITH SOCIETY NOW EAGERLY TEARING ITSELF APARTWITHGREED AND SELFISHNESSIN EXCESSI SIT OUTSIDE IT AGAIN TODAYWONDERINGFROM MY OBSCURE AND QUIET PLACEOF VISIONWHY ANYONE ELSE ISNT OUTRAGEDAT ALL THE CHEAP PROPAGANDA DICTATING AND BROADCASTINGISOLATION, ALIENATION, AND ELITIST MYTHS,THE FRAUDULENT IDEA THAT LOVE CAN BE SYMBOLIZEDTHROUGH DEATH AND PAINAND LIES ENGRAVEDON TACKY RED PAPER HEARTSAND FRAMED IN EXCESSIVE […]

Sweet is the PeaceOf Silence / Soothing / PeaceIs the Power of Silence BeautyComesQuietly / BeautifullyTo Me / ISee No Power in Violence Why Came Sweetly toMy Presence / SweetIn His Powerful Silence Questioning EVERYTHING!Yes…Yes…….Doubting His Beauty Was Worthy……. Sweet isThe Peace ILove You In,BeautifulKoreanChild. I’m Not Afraid of the Dark #6414 August 1997

A WORLD LIES HIDDEN BENEATH THE WORLD WHERE IT IS POSSIBLE TO SEE THROUGH FORM….. FORM IS WHAT MAKES UP THE WORLD WE SEE BUT THIS DOESN’T REALLY SHOW US WHAT’S ACTUALLY THERE WE DEFINE WHAT WE SEE THROUGH OUR FRAIL PETTY SENSES BELIEVING ONLY WHAT WE PERCEIVE AS REALITY THOUGH THIS REALITY CAN CHANGE […]

With Perfect Clarity I was Born For a Purpose I knew but then forgot Til Father Time saw fit to Ripen Me to My Passion Nothing can Keep Me Apart from What I Love and so I Learned of My Natural Fearlessness and in This took both Heart and Faith. In a clearly Insane World […]

Despite Your Best Efforts to Destroy Me, Here I still Shine, Beautifully Howling Joyously throughout The Cosmos, “I am ALIVE! I am FREE. And I L o v e The LIFEFORCE!” so Nothing can Keep Me Apart from You whom I Love. Without Hesitation I dive Headfirst into The Obscure Depths of Your Madness Because […]

FAITHWHICH WAS LOSTIN AN ILLUSION OF LOVEWAS/IS/WILL BE/AND ALWAYSNEVERYET PERSISTED IN THE MINDS OF THECHILDREN OF HEAVENAND CONVINCED THEMOF NOTHING FROM ITS EVIL, ROOTLESS BEINGAND SO THE BELIEF IN NOTHINGROSE ON HIGH LIKE A FALSE SUNAND BLINDED VISIONAND THE WORLD WAS HENCE PERCEIVEDIN SWEAT AND FEARIN COMPETITION AND IN INADEQUACYFORNOW THE BELIEF IN SCARCITYWAS WORSHIPPED […]

*FOR KATHERINE CHRONOS THOUGHTSTURNING OVER AND OVER/ TO BAKELIKE NOTES IN THE RAYSOF SOME DIVINE FIRE,/MY MUSERISESFROM HER NEWLY BLOSSOMED BEDIN THE FLOWERS OF A FIERY CLEANFOREVER/ CATCHES A SWEETBREEZE FROM HEAVEN/ MY MUSECOMES TO ME/ COMING TO MINDA WILD CHILDRESPLENDENT/REBELLIOUSMY MUSE FLIES…..MY MUSE RUNS FROM ME…WINGED AND WISE, MYMUSE NEVER LETS MECATCH HOLD OF […]

________________________________________________for JC,Trent Reznor___ and Clive Barker Empty and Black as Spaceisthe Night Outside_______________________________________________/As I,The Dark Prince of Desire, ____Reign/..As I, the Dark Prince think__________________________INSIDEMe/ColdInside.Chill-DeathInside.Cold/The Darkness/Secrets/Hide./..I Have Many/The Darkness/HidesI See Many/The Darkness/HidesI Have Many/The Darkness/HidesI See Many/The Darkness/Hides…./ “Vision is Not______________ for Darkness….Vision_________ is For Light.”(Vision is not for darkness, vision is for light?) The Darkness […]

*FOR TRENT REZNOR “EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!” SIGHED THE SKELETON,GLEAMINGIN DARKNESSDELIGHTEDWITHIN ITS LITTLE BONESTHAT IT HAD DISCOVEREDTHE SECRET OF LIFE/……….DEATH WAS THE SECRET OF LIFE IN THE DARK “I AM NOT BONES,” SPOKE THE BONES“I AM BEAUTIFUL…”BUT NOTHING COULD ANSWER IT PERFECTIN DARKNESS. “AND I’M NOT ALONE,” CONTINUED THE BONESIN VAST CONCAVITIESOF DEEPESTDARKESTSPACE AND NOTHINGCOULD ANSWER ITPERFECTLY BLANK. […]

FINAL ENTREES of POETRYFROM THE BUFFET OF SICKNESSSERIES # 1………………………….                                                              * for Sharon StoneWe BelieveIn The Saving Power of Jesus/..We Believe       Nothing/..We Believe Lovecan Save Us from Ourselves/..We Believe      Nothing/…We Believe It’s Time/We Believe in Time/We Believe It’s Time WeTook Better/We Believe This Time, We can Take Better/ We Believein Taking, and […]

*dedicated Respectfully to Wes Craven / F. Paul Wilson Paul Verhoeven/ Dario Argento John Carpenter \Stephen King and Vincent Downing ( who found” Queen Beast” soothing) The Devil is an Insect/One to the Second Power/Here in the First Galactic QuadrantThis Has been Discovered/From the Unholy Watchtowers ofCyberXenoPhotophobes/ Menacing…ADemonic Infestation of Deadly Savage InsectsCruelly Starved in […]

Not even in Deathwill You find True Peace from Me/Dark Jedi and Force Userof Lost Galactic Worlds gone by/for You do not Know The Destructive Power of Excessthough You are clearly Driven by it/But You can be subtly trained through Guiltto learn howYou are already My Slave/If Fear offers You anything SleekSeductive and AttractiveYou think […]

More PoetryFrom TheDark SideSeries #1 for Annie Lennox DIMLY AWARE IN THE DARK,THE SICK SERVANTS OF PAIN WERE SENT A NEW MESSAGEWHICH WAS INCONCEIVABLE TO THEMFOR THEY HAD LIVED LONG IN SUFFERING AND DOOM AND AGONYAND WERE ONLY USED TO PERCEIVING THINGS THIS ONE WAY.AND IT WOULD BE THIS PERCEPTION OF WEAKNESSWHICH THEY WOULD USE […]

FOR PAUL KLIENMAN , M.D., WHO HAS NO IDEAOF THE LOVELY GIFT HE GAVE… And I was running in the Park lateIn the DarkAnd Dew was sleek on sharp greengrass bladesIn the DarkBeneath the Lake a Child was drowningIn the DarkAnd I was lost and looking for YouIn the Dark … The sky was paling […]

The Rainfall Drives Down______Cold and CleanI hold You______CloserYou hold Me__Tighterin the Valley of Death’s Garden “Don’t leave Me….Please don’t leave Me!” But I’m________Dying______________Dying____________________Dying in the Garden… Dying in Your ArmsDying in the Rain……………………..cold and clean_____________________(Dead in Your Arms)glitters like gold…._____________________(Tears and Pain)Flowers and Rain……………../_________Splattering__________________(Screaming)Echoes________(Dreams)_________and letting go________of Life,cutting the cord(don’tleavemepleasedontleavemepleased)drowning in the womb(comebacktomepleasecomebacktomepleasecomebac)It’s Suicide____________in the Garden(screamscreamscreamscreamscreamscreams)Flowers […]

for Dahlia Lindsay “We     Feel     Cold,”said The Trees    to The Wind/as The SunFell Fast    from The Sky… “We     Feel      Old,”said The Leaves    to The Sky/as They FellFloating Dead    to The Ground… “I     Feel     Blue,”said The Moon   to The Sea/which Repliedwithout   making a    sound… “I     Feel     Alone,”said The Wind   to The Trees/as The Moonclimbed The    Clouds    […]

For Franco, Bridgette Hughes and Special Dedications to Suzanne Vega, Philip Glass, and Micheal Nyman These Bright WingsFlower-Colour’dShiver and BurstIn Flight/Unsmother’d Set Thee many Honey DropsLove-Liquid/Sweet upon thy LipsFrozen/Sunlight’s Burning StopsAn Ice-Filled Passion’s Crushing Grip/ Wings Upon Thy Darkened WatersDripping Heavy/Honey’s Dew..When the Moon glows Hot in QuarterWhen the Sun Doth Blaze in Blue When […]

IN THE HOLY CRYSTAL CITY OF POWERNEAR THE GATES OF HEAVENALL HEAVEN AND EARTHCAME TOGETHER AN INSTANTTO WITNESS THE BIRTH UNSPECTACULAROF THE DARK POET CHILDON A CELEBRATED PAGAN HOLlDAY IN 1969 THEY WOULD ABANDON HIM THERE TO HIS WITS BY FATEBY HIS OWN REQUESTA SECRET AGENT OF RADIANCEIN THE DARK WORLDOF TIME TO TEACH HIMSELF […]

For David Riley with Love IT DOES NOT MATTER/… THAT THERE’S DANGER,/THAT THERE’S DISASTER,/THAT THERE’S/ DEATH/…WE HAVE LOVEWHICH DOES NOT DIE/WE HAVE LIGHTWHICH WILL NOT LIE… /WE HAVE LOVE THATDOES NOT DIE…WILL NOT LIE…WILLS NOT DEATH/IT DOES NOT MATTER/THATDARK CLAIMS USWHILE THERE AREONES TO BE BLAMED/ WE WILL NOT BELIEVE IN SHAME NOW/WEHAVE NOTHING THERE […]

IN THE DEVASTATING SCARLETCRYSTAL PURPLESILENCE DID I HAPPENWHILEZONE TRIPPING ON THE OUTER RIM OF DESIRE UPON THE LORD OF THE LIGHT AT ONE THERE WITH ALL CREATIONCRYSTALS OF CLARITY WHIRLING MUSICALLY ALIVE LEAPT OFF HIMWITH UNSPEAKABLY BEAUTIFUL VISIONSSCATTERING INTO THE VOIDBEYOND HIM AND I FELL UPON MY KNEES IN AN INSTANTWHEN I SAW HIMAND WEPT.HIS […]

for jamie Lee Sutherland COME,…./BREAKTHROUGHTHE WALLOF TIMEWITH ME/ THIS IS OUR ONE HIDDEN FINAL DESTINY/WITH HONEST AND OPEN HEARTS ABLAZEAND CLEANIN LOVESO INTENSELYSHINING…WE WILL SHED DEATHTOGETHEREASILY/…. IN THE LIGHTOF OUR CHANGELESS PURITYREVEALED STREAKING CLEANIN HEALING SHOCKS OF TRUTH SO B R I G H T / AND POWERFUL…../WE WILL HUMBLY AGREE IN CLEAR AND OBVIOUS […]

FOR TONI HALLIDAY IN THE ENDLESS RADIANCE OF PERFECTIONFROM THE LIGHT OF ALL ETERNITYTHE STRANGEFRUIT OF GENIUSSENDS ITS GREETINGSTO THE PRISONERS ANDSLAVES OF THEDARK WORLD OF TIMEWHO DO NOT EVEN UNDERSTANDAS IT IS HAPPENING TO THEMTHAT THEY ARE TO BECOMEMOTIVATED AND INSPIREDBY THE BEAUTIFUL WORKSOF CREATION WHICH SHALL IN RETURN REMIND YOUWHEN TIME AND ALL […]

*for Jerico and Frankie Clinton THIS IS HOWTHE LIFEFORCE WOKE ME UP/TO THE LIT SKY/BEHIND THE SCREEN/OF ANOTHER MAN’S/MIND/FIRSTTHERE WERE MUSICIANS/AND THIS IS HOW/I KNEW LOVE THENLIKE YOU DON’T KNOW NOW/THE WAY A MAN CRIES WITHSEXIN HIS EYE/SPITTINGHIS SEETHINGSEMEN LINES/THE WAY A MAN HOLDS YOU/IN HIS MIND/TRACING YOU THOROUGHLYWITH HIS EYE/BLINDING YOU BEAUTIFULLYWITH HIS SHINE/PAINTING […]

ACT I, FOR JILL AND JOEACT II, FOR GUSTAVACT III FOR JAMES ACT I THE FULL MOON CHILDREN LOVE WITH CARE MIND OVER MATTEREASILYRESTATES TO MINDTHE PRINCIPALS OF ETERNITYBESIDEUSWHO BELIEVE WEARE BUT RAVING TINYBOTTLED MORTALS TRAPPEDBY GRAVITYAND THROWNTHROUGH PITCH BLACK SPACE,HURTLING HELPLESSLYINTO THE BURNINGSTAR-FILLED SEA OFTHE COSMOS RENEW USRELEASE USSET USFREEFROM OUR OWN CRUSHINGSENSE OF […]

I AM SETTING MYSELF INTO MOTIONI HAVE DECIDED…I ‘VE MADE UP MY MINDI AM READY TO LEAVE DEATH BEHIND MEI AM READY TO EXIT THE PAST;        I’VE DECIDEDI WILL THOROUGHLY EXPLORE THIS THING, I THINKI’VE ELECTED TO TOTALLY DO IT JUSTICEI THINKTHEREFORE THIS THING MUSTBE MY EXISTENCEMY EXISTENCE IS THIS THING I THINK MUST BE […]