I’m Not Afraid of The Dark

I AM SETTING MYSELF INTO MOTION
I HAVE DECIDED…
I ‘VE MADE UP MY MIND
I AM READY TO LEAVE DEATH BEHIND ME
I AM READY TO EXIT THE PAST; I’VE DECIDED
I WILL THOROUGHLY EXPLORE THIS THING, I THINK
I’VE ELECTED TO TOTALLY DO IT JUSTICE
I THINK
THEREFORE THIS THING MUST
BE MY EXISTENCE
MY EXISTENCE IS THIS THING I THINK MUST BE MY LIFE
AND BROTHERS AND SISTERS
LET ME TELL YOU
I COULD TELL YOU SOME INTERESTING THINGS
I HAVE SURVIVED IN THE VALLEY OF THE SHADOW
I HAVE KNOWN DARKNESS AND HAVE STAVED-OFF MORTAL TERRORS
DARKNESS
AND THE ENEMY
I HAVE SEEN
FACE TO FACE
I HAVE SEEN THE HORROR OF FEAR ITSELF,
SUPPED ITS TERRIFYING NECTARS, TASTED ALL ITS EVIL SYMMETRY
WHERE I HAVE KNOWN MADNESS
IN ALL HELLISH FURY
AND MY BROTHERS AND SISTERS I TRULY PRAY FOR YE
AND MY SISTERS AND BROTHERS I TRULY SAY TO YE
THAT NOTHING CAN GET YOU DOWN IN THE WORLD
THAT NOTHING CAN TAKE YOU OUT THERE
MY LOVED ONES,
IF TO THINE OWNSELF YOU ARE TRUE
TO THINE OWNSELF PLEASE BE TRUE
IF YOU CAN REMAIN UNASSAILABLE IN YOUR OWN AUTHENTICITY
FOR THIS IS THE TRUE NATURE OF POWER
HOW YOU CAN BECOME INVULNERABLE
UNSTOPPABLE
THIS IS THE ROAD TO THE PURE OF HEART
THIS IS THE SECRET OF SATURDAY’S CHILD
THIS IS THE PATH OF THE CHILD OF LIGHT
SUCH LIGHTS THE WAY TO A SKY-BLUE HEAVEN
THIS IS THE PICTURE I SAW IN DREAMS
THIS WAS THE MONSTER I FACED IN EXISTENCE; THE BEAST OF MY HORRORS
NIGHTMARES
WHERE I FORGOT MY PURPOSE
LOST PRECIOUS BALANCE
LOSING PURE CONNECTION
WITH MY CREATOR
THIS WAS THE THING I SAW
AND WEPT…. PURGED BLACK
IN SORROWS OF A FIERY BAPTISM,
BURNED DOWN
TO ASHES OF A NUCLEAR PHOENIX,
I SAW THE MIRROR WHERE REFLECTION SLASHED..
PURIFIED IN INNOCENCE I BEGAN TO REMEMBER
ELATED BY MY WONDER, I WOKE UP TO MY POTENTIAL
VIVIFIED IN WISDOM I BEGAN TO HEAL
ENERGIZED IN POWER I BEGAN TO REGENERATE
AWE -SWEPT,
WEEPING,
AND LOVING IT,
I BEGAN TO TRULY FEEL
SISTERS AND BROTHERS
I TELL YOU I BEGAN TO SEE THINGS CLEARLY
BROTHERS AND SISTERS
I TELL YOU I BEGAN TO KNOW THE LIGHT
BEGINNING AN ACQUAINTANCE
WITH MY TRUE IDENTITY RECOGNIZING SELF AS RADIANT AND PURE
BEGAN TO KNOW THERE WAS NOTHING
TO RUN FROM
NOTHING
TO FEAR
NOTHING TO HIDE
AND I SO BEGAN THEN
A BLISSFUL LIVING
BEGAN TO LIVE AND SEE
WITH SPIRIT
A SINLESS EXISTENCE , .
OF ZERO-GUILT BLEACHING ME PURE,
THE GODLIGHT BURSTING CLEANLY FROM ME
AS THE DISCOVERY OF HEALING
A SELF-LEARNING CURE
WHERE THE LAWS OF AGING AND THE LAWS OF GRAVITY
REVERSE THEMSELVES WITH GRATITUDE
AND RIDICULOUS PACTS WITH LIMITATION AND FEAR
BECOME
WHEN HELD FEARLESSLY
TO LIGHT
IMPLAUSIBLE, MOST LAUGHABLE
FROM THE SILENCE I’D COME TO KNOW AS PEACE

THIS WAS WHEN I SAW WHAT TRULY MATTERED
THIS WAS WHEN I SAW THAT I AM FREE
THIS WAS WHEN, THROUGH VISION, I SAW THAT I AM SPIRIT
THIS WAS WHEN REFLECTION TRULY MIRRORED ME
SHOWED ME I AM A CHILD OF THE STARS
A SERVANT OF THE UNIVERSE ABLE AND READY….

REALITY THEN BRIGHTENS/INNER STATES/I AM ENLIGHTENED
AS THE STARS ALL STREAK TOGETHER
FAST/CONNECTING/
UNIFYING/TO FILL A WHOLE HEAVEN WITH LOVING/LIGHT/ETERNITY SHATTERS IT

AND THE SKY THEN OPENS UP
WITH ANGELS
ANGELS
ANGELS
I’D SEEN A THOUSAND TIMES BEFORE
UNVEILING THEIR EXISTENCE TO ME
THROUGH ME
FLYING BY ME
BY THE TRILLIONS
FROM THE MULTITUDE OF DOORS NOW SWINGING OPEN FOR ME

AND THEY WERE MUSICAL AND ]OYOUS
AND THEY WERE BEAUTIFUL AND SENTIENT
AND THEY WERE RADIANT AND AWARE
AND THEY WERE SILENT AND INTELLIGENT

UNBLINKING
FLYING FAST AND FREE,
GLEAMING AND BLINDING AND UNSELFCONSCIOUS
WITH THE HOLY LIGHT OF HEAVEN IN THEM
FROM THEIR GENTLENESS AND TRANQUILITY
AND THEIR MESMERIZING ELEGANCE OF POWER SUCH
WHICH REIGNED UNOPPOSED
UNSPOILED IN ITS DEFENSELESSNESS
A VISION VASTLY INSPIRING
THEY WERE
WITH EYES BLAZING OF DESTINIES FAR SIGHTED
BUT LIMITLESS WITH ENERGY
THEY WERE
WITH INEXHAUSTIBLE POTENCY AND UNLIMITED MIGHT
AND MY CONTACT WITH THEM REVERSED MY PERSPECTIVE
AND FILLED ME WITH UNSPEAKABLE JOY
AND SO RECHARGED I WAS TRANSFORMED
BECAME FEARLESS, THAT’S WHEN IT HAPPENED….
THAT’S WHEN I OPENED UP MY MIND
AND SO I WAS REBORN,SURVIVING EVIL/..
RESURRECTED
INTO A PERSPECTIVE OF WHOLENESS/OF
PERFECTION/OF PURITY.
WHEN I CHOSE HONESTLY. WHEN I CHOSE WISELY.
WHEN I CHOSE TO IGNORE ALL FEAR.
THAT’S WHY I’M NOT AFRAID OF THE DARK.

10, MARCH, 2003
Berlin, Germany